Tuesday, July 22, 2008

Ponderous cogitations...

Some people come into our life, stroking it ever so gently with their soothing touch that it leaves behind a mark etched so deep in our memories that it becomes absolutely chimerical on our part to wipe it off. Call it magic, the time spent with them howsoever routine and monotonous seems to be the best time of our lives.
The tender touches, that little pulling of each other's leg, those small moments of joy so beautifully interwoven that life seems so complete and gorgeous. We walk in the park holding hands, script wild fantasies together, talk about all the weird things in this world that our otherwise so very rational mind would bar us from gibbering. We get so used to spending time together that we don't wanna think about the possibility of not being able to do so.
This is when the omnipresent shows his might and forces us to part, but then in this Tech savvy world distance never appears like bringing about a hiatus in our relationship. we depart, making all sorts of promises to stay in touch. This is when i usually say to myself that hope is the most beautiful thing in this world.
Flight boarded, destination reached, picked up the phone.."hey!!!"(the hey from the other side seems so warm and full of excitement), the excitement is palpable in the initial few days but the story takes a turn now. The "we" changes to a "I" henceforth.
Its been 10 days since i last saw her but i talk to her almost everyday though the density has been decreasing exponentially. I ponder about giving her a surprise special call, think about some amazing things to dole out over the phone. Number dialed...tring,tring,tring...she's so late in picking up the phone that I am about to put down the receiver.."Temme".."oh! hii!!,just thought would talk to you generally"(the cold temme has already turned me off, i have forgotten all the amazing stuff i was supposed to blabber) " oh!!..but..err..".."Hey!! i hope its ok if i talk to you now".."well!!!err.. not actually i am supposed to be talking to my friend now..(who am i??)she's home".." oh!! cya then, bye"..cut
A sane human being would expect her to call back, sms back or atleast mail back.."duh!"..The waits going to be endless. My ego tells me "forget her.period", I delete her from my gtalk,delete her messages and phone no.(well do u really need to store it, u know it by heart anyways ) ,thinking if I don't see the name it'll be easy to delete her from my memory too but the so very sweet and nice human being that i am..one li'l buzz one day and i forget it all but then the proximity has decreased. I am just another guy in her gtalk list and vice-versa. Its been 6 months since i last chatted with her. In some cases she might appear to be offline from my id all the time.
i had been told by many of my close buddies to stay away from such dangerous short term(long distance) associations and they had foretold me about this end but i never paid any heed to their incessant blabber on this issue and i am happy that i didn't...
Knock knock..a sudden twist in the tail...this one's having a happy ending..they kept on talking and their friendship wasn't an ephemeral one. Their practical outlook towards life stopped them from doing anything outrageously special but then they continued being in the comfort zone, loved sharing little things about their lives. I still say to myself hope is the most beautiful thing in this world.
But finally a word to those who actually bring about a premature termination to this budding friendship. It is a very arduous task to find people who would love you and care for you truly and selflessly all their life so if you have found one, kindly continue sparing some of your precious time and energy to let this association blossom. The absence of this someone won't make your life incomplete or abominable but then the presence would surely make it more complete and beautiful.

19 comments:

  1. beautifully written :)
    hope you always stay friends with her :)

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  2. hey bhasker!
    i didnt know you could write so beautifully!
    nice read .. whos the girl btw?
    seems like u met someone during this summer :)
    --
    Advani

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  3. kya baat hai...hamara bhaskar sudhar raha hai....

    BTW why dont you post more frequently. I am ravenous to such quality writing.

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  4. kya baat hai...hamara bhaskar sudhar raha hai....

    BTW why dont you post more frequently. I am ravenous to such quality writing.

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  5. @addu
    thanks. these kind of words would inspire me to post further and i told u i had a wonderful summer..:)
    @abhishek
    tumhara bhaskar was always this way, the only thing being his priorities and prerogatives were different then..:)

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  6. gr8 post yaar ... u have used up the full potential of expressing ur views "indirectly" to someone ... it seems u have mixed up two stories of ur life ... :P

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  7. it is awesome..............

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  8. it is just awesome

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  9. true... hope is a good thing.. jus that it should be plausible..
    nicely written.. but u might wanna keep stuff shorter unless its a story

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  10. Hey good writing
    Good sense of grabing words

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  11. @soham
    no hybrids this one's a puritan..:)
    @rest
    thank u thank u..:)
    @ashtung
    first of all nice to see someone new and so far away reading my stuff..:)
    i don't let my hopes and imaginations to be tied down by the clauses of plausibility & practicability..this is Bhaskar for you..[:)]
    I am an ardent fan of the movie shawshank redemption and i am a firm believer of what Tim Robbins says in the movie " hope is a beautiful thing"..:)and his hopes also did come true..:)

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  12. if m not wrong is she Sh----na ??
    hope is the most beautiful thing in this world cool line ! dude i hv read all the articles in ur blog .. never read whole blog of any other guy !! man just keep on throwing your cognitions throught this sem :D

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  13. ican never imagine writing such quality stuff.....really amazing...keep on writing so that u can perhaps become a writer....

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  14. Wow.

    X-Period-X

    (This piece is soo profound & overwheming; I have recently been through this so I completely understand your emotions. It's so precise a narrative of your experience, yet so poignant, that I'm left out of words!)

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  15. Thanx a lot bhavika...[:)]
    @all
    thnx a lot for your appreciation..hope to pen down some more soon[:)]

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  16. It is more than just awesome :) .....

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  17. mil jayegi tujhe be :)
    tere dil ka phool bhi ek din khilega
    bichda yaar bhi tujhe milega :)

    - Ankit, Sappi & adidas

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